The life you live is yours, everything else is shared, bought, replaced, discarded, forgotten, but your life and by life I mean your body and mind, time, is only yours, for you to share or keep it to yourself, just remember its more fun with others.
For me there is a quote that has stuck in my head and can’t seem to be forgotten, “Every man has two lives, and the second starts when he realizes he only has one” – Cunfucius. Seems obvious but let me explain why it stuck. No matter whether you believe in God or not, all of us know that this physical life will end someday and we know it pretty young, maybe too young to understand it. As we get older truth starts setting in, harshness of life, regrets, that feeling of time moment by moment going by never to be experienced again. For most, the thing that should be pushing us to do more, the gift that is this limited time that we have, is the thing that brings most of the pain. Not the life itself, but the understanding of it’s value. Lives that could be lived, and lives that aren’t lived.
Sorry for melancholy, but everyone experiences this feeling, it is what you do with it. To ponder what could have been or to be what one can be. Emotions can make life miserable but emotions are the only thing that bring meaning to life. Weird how life works the things that bring us most headaches are the things that can bring us the most joy. Same as time, if we had unlimited time, it would be worthless, there would be no urgency no value only because of it’s scarcity we can appreciate it.
What do you want to do with your life? I know you want more, but what is more? Money doesn’t brings happiness, just ask most of the lottery winners. People who say they want money, in general they want to be a person that can get money, that means skills, connections, status, ability to do things if you want things for good, if you want for bad, but we all want to be more than just a piece of this animal flesh. We want love, fun, experiences, accomplishments, friends. We want a lot. Remember, you can get anything not everything, just start by doing something. Knowing what not to do is also worth something. Edison failed 10,000 times before perfecting the incandescent electric light bulb. Don’t worry if you fail once. Experience is not a waste of time.
To myself: Bring the light, bring the dark, share them both I trust you the most.
To you: I hope you can be better than me, I know you can but I don’t think you will, I’ve been wrong before, so prove me wrong, until then I’ll trust myself.
“Pain is life, pleasure is life, so this is life.”